tattoo

Tattoo

Jasmine   That's the tattoo that I'm planning on getting next month.  Everything that's in white will be black outline and of course, the large black box won't be part of the tattoo.  And her name will be directly underneath of the fairy.  I'm getting it on the lower part of my back on the right side.  I have several tattoos that I want to eventually get but this is the most important one right now.  The next one will be Shawn's name on my arm.  (haven't decided on right or left yet) This one will be my first tattoo.  I've been wanting to get one for years but didn't want to get something that I'd regret so I spent many years looking at designs.  I know I won't regret my first one, that's for sure.

Sleeping

Shawn's back to work this week.  It'll be nice when the money starts coming back in but it sucks at night.  She still hasn't gotten on a sleep schedule so there's never any way to tell when she's actually going to sleep and for how long.  Last night was a good night.  I was asleep before 3am and she slept till 7am.  She stayed up for a little over two hours before going back to sleep till noon.  Unfortunately, she's usually up for about two hours after every feeding.  I can't believe how big she's gotten already.  I want to be able to remember every single moment of right now but I'm sure some day I'll start to forget the little things that are so important right now.  That's probably why I take so many pictures of her.  I want to remember every smile, pose and grimace. 

Pictures and Updates

I would've wrote again sooner but everytime I get online, she starts to cry.  I can do anything else and she's an angel, I get online and she screams.  =)  Shawn and I got married at the courthouse on July 8th.  We'll have a ceremony next year on the same day where all our family and friends can be there.  It was over very quickly.  We didn't even have a chance to catch our breath before we knew it, it was over. 

We've recently been experiencing the joys of colick.  Neither Shawn nor myself is getting much sleep these days.  She usually doesn't stop crying till between 4-6am.  It's very frustrating and we feel awful for her because there's nothing we can do to make her feel better.  We basically take turns failing at calming her for hours on end.  She's starting to smile a lot more now.  Every morning when she wakes up she smiles for about ten minutes.  She's in the very beginning of cooing.  One night when she was asleep, she laughed.  That was the only time she's done it but of course it almost made me start balling.  Every day I look at her and think she's getting big too fast.  I'm already worried about the first day of school.  I'm positive I'll be a mess.  I've literally taken a photo album's worth of pictures already. 

Everything hasn't been all rosy this past month.  My grandpa went into the hospital on July 3rd.  He was in severe pain in his abdomen.  It turned out to be pancreatitis.  He had some very scary nights while in the hospital.  There was one day when we rushed to the hospital thinking the worst.  He finally came home yesterday evening.  It'll be a long time before I'll be able to relax though.  I'm always waiting for that phone call that he's back in the hospital. 

Shawn broke one of his fingers and is on disability until he's cleared from the doctor.  That's been very stressful with a new baby.  The first week he drove me up the wall because he was restless and worried about money.  It's gotten better since then thankfully.  It's nice to have him home though.  Every once and a while I'm able to get a full night of sleep without waking up to the baby because he's home and allows me to sleep.  I'm very grateful for that on the nights when I'm so tired that I literally feel like my eyes are bleeding. 

We had to put our Siberian Husky to sleep right after Jasmine was born.  She hadn't been eating well for quite some time and the vets couldn't figure out what was causing it.  We took her in for an ultrasound and found that she had a great deal of cancer growing in her body.  We made the decision to have her euthanized when the vet told us we had to make the decision soon or it would be out of our hands.  We didn't want her to suffer like that.

Other than that, our lives have basically been feeding, changing, sleeping and consoling a baby.  I'm amazed at all the swings, bouncers, etc that are out there.  We recently received a bouncer that has "fish" in an aquarium and it literally blows bubbles.  She's fascinated by it.  Well, she's crying now so I must be going.  I'll try to write again soon.