Jessica Rose

Please think of Jessica Rose, she is the little girl who has cancer.  She is in critical condition in New York at Sloan's Hospital. http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/jessicakohut

Damn, it's cold

My days have been spent with endless hours of Evan Almighty.  We rented it for Jasmine since she likes any movie with animals in it and she ended up liking it so much we got it for her.  For a while it was Sesame Street all day.  She wasn't watching it but it HAD to be on.  Now it's Evan Almighty or as she calls it, tigers.  (even though the tigers are only in the movie for all of ten seconds) As much as I've come to loathe the sight of the movie, I love that it occasionally buys me five or ten minutes without hearing mom, mom, mom.  Sometimes she actually says my name over and over just to get a reaction.  When I say what, she looks confused and says uhmmmmm.  She's recently begun answering questions with full sentences.  We used to ask her if she was hungry and her way of saying yes would be repeating 'are you hungry?'  Now she answers with 'Yes I am hungry.  Are you hungry?'  She's extremely polite and says thank you when a stranger holds the door for us.  Well, she really says thank you to anything.  If she thinks you've made a strange face or noise she asks if you're ok.  And usually she comes over to hug you.  That being said, she also has one of the worst potty mouths I've ever heard on a two year old.  We had it under control pretty good for a while, at least that's what we thought.  Yesterday, we were in the middle of Walmart and she was asking to look at something or buy something and Shawn told her no.  She responded with 'You're an asshole.'  Oh yes, you're choking on your coffee now.  ; )  Even I had to walk away because it was so hard for me to keep in that laugh.  My husband was upset (probably because he knew it was somehow my doing) but once he saw my face, he couldn't help but grin.  For once, she didn't see our amusement.  She used to say damnit every time she dropped something but we had taught her to say darn it instead.  (well she slipped up once tonight when I threw something in the recycle and it missed, I said nothing but she said goddamnit and quickly corrected herself) There was a time (not anymore thankfully) when she would literally run through the house saying the f-word.  I remember her running in circles in the kitchen just saying f, f, f over and over again.  I don't know how we stopped that one because she thought it was the best thing in the world.  My mouth has gotten better since she has began speaking so well.  I do still curse here and there and probably more than I should but it's better.  Shawn still has some improving to do, although he is quick to correct me when I slip.  Lucky for us, most people only see the polite little wild child and not the cursing sailor.

Me and my husband have become obsessed with Guitar Hero III.  It's a game for Xbox 360 (or PS2, PS3 and just about any other gaming console).  At first I didn't see how it was that fun or even that challenging.  I can play the guitar, not well, but I can so playing a fake one on a tv just seemed silly.  Basically instead of the usual controller, you have what appears to be a guitar, except where the strings are, there are five buttons and where you would usually pick, there is a bar that moves either way you feel comfortable.  The game can be a bit challenging I found once I started playing it but I can still kick my husband's butt on it.  It's the first video game I've really played since Jasmine was born because quite frankly, I really have better things I could be doing.  This has been nice because it's something we're doing together and not seperate.  Usually he plays some football game and I play on the computer.  Jasmine usually ends the game because she throws a super fit but it's still nice to have something silly we can do together. 

It snowed a little for the first time tonight.  Nothing stuck to the ground but it's still a sign of what's to come.  I remember as a kid, the first snowflakes were magical.  Now it's just a reminder that once again it's going to be cold and gloomy out.  Did I mention cold.  I have a "winter" coat but not really.  When I went shopping for one, all I could find were things made from animals so I settled on the less warm one, much less warm.  I was regretting it tonight when I was out making the cats more comfortable.  On my second trip I stole my mom's heavy down filled coat.  There are days I wish I wasn't so enviromentally friendly, particularly on the cold days.

Ick

Friday I had a doctor's appointment for my IBS-D.  He seemed more concerned than I.  I truly believe that all I have is IBS.  Years ago I came to him and thought for sure it was Crohn's Disease because it was so painful.  He seemed unconcerned at that time, maybe it was because I was the first to bring up Crohn's.  For now, I will be on a fiber supplement (which has shown NO signs of improving IBS-D in studies) and a prescription.  If there is no improvement in 4-6 weeks, he will want to schedule me for a colonoscopy and biosopy of my intestines to check for signs of disease.  That should be fun.  I would prefer that doesn't happen but I guess we'll see. 

Farful

One of my closest friends had to say goodbye to her dog, Farful today.  It's the only time I've ever cried when someone else's dog died.  He tried to act like a big meany but he was one of the sweetest dogs. 

NOT one of mine!  But I've had days where I've felt like this cat for sure.

 

Can I have this dance?

I think I may have just entered a whole new phase of crazy.  Ok, when I lived at my moms house a lot of weird shit would happen that only I would hear, except for one time my mom heard it too.  Usually I would hear someone calling my name over and over throughout the night.  Then it escalated to her calling my name and having a wicked laugh afterwards, to saying my name, telling me to get out and then the wicked laugh again.  By the time the last phrase came I was so used to her that I just ignored her.  I also saw the images of children in the house.  When they would see my looking they would run where I couldn't see them and then they'd be gone for days or weeks.  They didn't bother me, I just felt bad that I was scaring them and had no way of helping them move on.  The only time someone else heard something was one day me and my mom were watching wheel of fortune and we both heard my brother's door open and then close.  Except my brother was downstairs in the bathroom and no on else was home.  The dogs weren't even in the house. 

A few weeks ago I began joking that I thought little people lived in my laptop and they always seemed to be doing the dishes or vaccuming.  (that's exactly what the noises sound like but it's obviously just normal stuff going on that the computer has to do) Tonight however, I began hearing country music coming through my computer.  It was so faint I had a hard time picking up words but it was definitely country with some folk mixed in.  I could even hear where a dj would break in and do the call letters although for the life of me I couldn't tell you what they were.  WEIRD.  It's probably just some how my computer caught a signal from a tower at just the right time.  Oh and by the way, my sound is off, it's always off.  Talk about a creepy Halloween night.  Oh and the only things I usually hear in this house is that it sounds like someone is playing country music in the attic and once and a while it almost sounds like a really old music box.  I even went up to the attic (even though it TOTALLY creeps me out up there) to make sure there wasn't anything like a radio that just got lost up there.  Nothing, completely empty.  We used to sleep in the bedroom where the access to the attic was but after three months of nonstop country, we moved to another room.

Trickery

I don't appear to be sick, knock on wood.  So it must have just been from crying.  Took Jasmine out for trick or treating tonight.  Right now we only go to a few houses that are friends or family since I think she would just be scared to go to strangers houses.  She went as Mulan from one of the Disney movies.  It looked a lot like a Geisha outfit.  It was long sleeved and had a long skirt so she was able to wear pants and a shirt under it without even noticing.  She very much so enjoyed the candy, most of it is already gone. 

Watched Mr. Brooks last night with Kevin Costner, really good movie with lots of twists to throw you off.  Watched The Reaping tonight, which as far as a cult/horror movie was pretty good.  It had Hilary Swank in it.