The usual

So much for sleep... so much for flu shots.  Things were going pretty normally last night.  Well, for us.  Jasmine usually starts to get ready for bed around 4-5am.  Yes, I said BED at 4 in the morning.  I'm a night person, so she turned into a night baby.  I could tell she wasn't winding down as the night went on.  She wanted me to read goodnight moon to her over and over again.  Then she wanted me to read the runaway bunny AND goodnight moon at the SAME time.  Interesting.  She threw up a little bit early in the night.  More like baby spit up than throw up.  (she was never a baby who spit up by the way)  Then around 9am... when I was becoming quite exhausted... she threw up several times in the kitchen and decided to play in it... I was in my bedroom with the door open and wasn't immediately aware that she was doing anything unusually.  Today was the first time I cleaned up someone's vomit other than my own.  You don't realize how long the smell sticks around until it's NOT your vomit.  I might as well have been sprayed by a skunk.  She didn't seem to phased by any of it though.  Again, no fever, and wasn't acting like she was sick.  She finally fell asleep sometime around 10:30am.  I had called off going to the doctor by then to get my flu shot at 2pm.  There was no way I was getting out of bed with three hours of sleep just so I could get stuck by a needle and possibly pass out.  After we woke up, me and my mom went to Walmart and bought Over the Hedge and Milo and Otis.  Over the Hedge was a very cute movie, what I got to see of it anyways.  Jasmine is still enthralled with her magic ability to turn on and off the television.  She uses this talent mainly while watching movies. 

My dad is supposed to be coming over tomorrow.... at some point.  He bought us a cheap truck so that we have two vehicles and wants to drop it off on his way home from watervaliet, MI.  I have no idea when he's supposed to be here so I may or may not decide to stick around and wait for him. 

Jazzy

I haven't had much time to get online this last week or so.  Jasmine hasn't been sleeping well... so I've been sleeping even worse.  She acts fine all day and then as soon as she falls asleep she gets a fever and wakes up on and off all night long.  Sometimes she's up for several hours, other times I read her a story and she's back to sleep.  I've had a sore throat for several days but no fever or anything so I think it's just an allergy thing.  I don't understand why she has no fever during the day and then spikes one of 102 shortly after falling asleep.  It just doesn't make any sense.  She's taking a nap right now and normally I would be passed out next to her but I'm not too terribly tired right now.  Tomorrow I'm going to get my flu shot.  Shocking I know since it took till I was six/seven months pregnant to get my blood drawn, something that should've been done several times by then.  I really don't want to have the flu really bad and have a toddler at the same time so I'm going to take the momentary panic that sets in the second I realize "it's" actually happen.  Shawn called my doctor today to make sure that I can get the shot somewhere other than my arm and they said I can have it anywhere I want it.  So my left thigh will be taking the brunt of the needle. 

I'm still conflicted about having more children.  I know I want to but there's this other part of me that wants to devote EVERYTHING I have just to Jasmine.  I don't want to have to share myself with another child.  But I also know I'll regret it if I don't have more children and I know no matter how wonerful Jasmine's life is, she'll always have wanted siblings.  Most people don't want to get fat and have to go through labor and delivery but I loved being pregnant (except for the morning sickness) and I even enjoyed the delivery and everything, after the epidural. 

At any rate, Halloween went ok.  Jasmine was tired so we didn't go everywhere we had planned but she got m&m's and lollipops so she's quite happy.  Oh she was so cute today.  I had Shawn go get me a frozen coke for my throat and told him to bring her back a small one and when she realized it was all for her she walked around carrying it and looking so proud of herself.  It's funny.  When I was pregnant I said my child won't have pop until she's at least four.  I said there's no reason for a child that young to even know the taste of pop.  It started in the summer.  It was REALLY hot out and I didn't have anything for her to drink except a frozen coke.  She's been hooked ever since and we've guiltlessly indulged her.  The little girl has us both wrapped around her little finger.  She's already so spoiled but she's soooo sweet too.  She'll walk up to you and it looks like she's going to smack you in the face (a phase I believe she is growing out of) and instead she caresses your cheek.  How can you deny her anything when she does that? 

Blessed Sleep

I finally gave in for the first time since before I was pregnant with my daughter. I started taking OTC sleeping pills again.  I was tossing and turning till 10am the other morning and just thought 'that's it, I'm not doing this anymore.'  I actually had the energy to clean up the kitchen today for the first time in a few weeks.  I was doing little things here and there but it definitely wasn't as clean as I wanted it to be.  We'll see how long it is before the pills stop working and I'll have to go back to trying to sleep on my own.

The puppy, Cash is getting big fast.  He's finally starting to catch on to potty training.  We got him when he was 6 weeks old and the lady told us it might take a little longer to train him.  He's 8 weeks now and I thought he was never going to figure it out.  He's kind of a bone head goof ball dog so I think that made it even more difficult.  Well, my sleeping pill is starting to kick in.  I should lay down and see what happens.

Baby girl Pics!!!!

Kids

I thought people were so stupid a few years ago.  Going crazy over a tickle me elmo doll.  Now that I have a child of my own... The stupid doll is sold out EVERYWHERE.  Even on the fish price website.  They won't have any until 2007.  I can get it on ebay... if I want to pay almost $100.  This may be one toy that she doesn't get till after Christmas.

blah blah blah

I don't know what's up with me lately.  I've just been very blah.  Am I depressed?  I don't think I'm depressed.  I don't feel depressed.  I just don't feel like doing anything.  I feel bored.  There have been several days in the last month (ok maybe more than several) where I stay in my pj's all day unless I have to go somewhere.  I never even put pants on today.  I just sat around in my underwear.  I've had a horrible canker sore for almost a week.  Some days it's been so bad that I don't want to talk, smile or eat.  Today hasn't been too bad so I'm hoping it's going away.  Maybe I'll have more motivation then.  I haven't cleaned the house since Thursday night.  (eeek) I swear I'm going to clean at least a little bit tonight.  Shawn has bronchitis and I want to clean the house before I get it or Jasmine gets it.  Otherwise the house will really go to hell in a hand basket.  Somebody send me some energy.  Or better yet, a milky way chiller from gloria jeans.  Their coffee is sooooo much better than starbucks. 

Irwin

My phone line is messed up right now so until at least tomorrow, our DSL isn't working.  I'm stuck with good ole dial up.  Our house warming party went really well I thought.  Everyone seemed to have a good time and almost all the burgers got eaten.  By the end of the night it kind of looked like a grade school dance though.  The boys were all in the house playing cards while the women were outside with their kids.  The dogs were well behaved.  They didn't try and eat anyone, at least not that I was aware of. 

I was very upset to hear of Steve Irwin's death on Monday.  I tear up everytime I'm watching the animal planet or discovery since they play the memorial to him several times a day.  I feel terrible for his wife and two kids, especially Bindi, who was obviously in love with her daddy.