tattoo

Tattoo

Jasmine   That's the tattoo that I'm planning on getting next month.  Everything that's in white will be black outline and of course, the large black box won't be part of the tattoo.  And her name will be directly underneath of the fairy.  I'm getting it on the lower part of my back on the right side.  I have several tattoos that I want to eventually get but this is the most important one right now.  The next one will be Shawn's name on my arm.  (haven't decided on right or left yet) This one will be my first tattoo.  I've been wanting to get one for years but didn't want to get something that I'd regret so I spent many years looking at designs.  I know I won't regret my first one, that's for sure.

Sleeping

Shawn's back to work this week.  It'll be nice when the money starts coming back in but it sucks at night.  She still hasn't gotten on a sleep schedule so there's never any way to tell when she's actually going to sleep and for how long.  Last night was a good night.  I was asleep before 3am and she slept till 7am.  She stayed up for a little over two hours before going back to sleep till noon.  Unfortunately, she's usually up for about two hours after every feeding.  I can't believe how big she's gotten already.  I want to be able to remember every single moment of right now but I'm sure some day I'll start to forget the little things that are so important right now.  That's probably why I take so many pictures of her.  I want to remember every smile, pose and grimace. 

Pictures and Updates

I would've wrote again sooner but everytime I get online, she starts to cry.  I can do anything else and she's an angel, I get online and she screams.  =)  Shawn and I got married at the courthouse on July 8th.  We'll have a ceremony next year on the same day where all our family and friends can be there.  It was over very quickly.  We didn't even have a chance to catch our breath before we knew it, it was over. 

We've recently been experiencing the joys of colick.  Neither Shawn nor myself is getting much sleep these days.  She usually doesn't stop crying till between 4-6am.  It's very frustrating and we feel awful for her because there's nothing we can do to make her feel better.  We basically take turns failing at calming her for hours on end.  She's starting to smile a lot more now.  Every morning when she wakes up she smiles for about ten minutes.  She's in the very beginning of cooing.  One night when she was asleep, she laughed.  That was the only time she's done it but of course it almost made me start balling.  Every day I look at her and think she's getting big too fast.  I'm already worried about the first day of school.  I'm positive I'll be a mess.  I've literally taken a photo album's worth of pictures already. 

Everything hasn't been all rosy this past month.  My grandpa went into the hospital on July 3rd.  He was in severe pain in his abdomen.  It turned out to be pancreatitis.  He had some very scary nights while in the hospital.  There was one day when we rushed to the hospital thinking the worst.  He finally came home yesterday evening.  It'll be a long time before I'll be able to relax though.  I'm always waiting for that phone call that he's back in the hospital. 

Shawn broke one of his fingers and is on disability until he's cleared from the doctor.  That's been very stressful with a new baby.  The first week he drove me up the wall because he was restless and worried about money.  It's gotten better since then thankfully.  It's nice to have him home though.  Every once and a while I'm able to get a full night of sleep without waking up to the baby because he's home and allows me to sleep.  I'm very grateful for that on the nights when I'm so tired that I literally feel like my eyes are bleeding. 

We had to put our Siberian Husky to sleep right after Jasmine was born.  She hadn't been eating well for quite some time and the vets couldn't figure out what was causing it.  We took her in for an ultrasound and found that she had a great deal of cancer growing in her body.  We made the decision to have her euthanized when the vet told us we had to make the decision soon or it would be out of our hands.  We didn't want her to suffer like that.

Other than that, our lives have basically been feeding, changing, sleeping and consoling a baby.  I'm amazed at all the swings, bouncers, etc that are out there.  We recently received a bouncer that has "fish" in an aquarium and it literally blows bubbles.  She's fascinated by it.  Well, she's crying now so I must be going.  I'll try to write again soon.

Baby Pictures

The Whole Story

Ok, I figure I'd better get this story on here now otherwise I may never get around to it.  I went into labor on June 9th around 1pm.  It started off as a backache and irregular contractions.  I called the doctor to let them know and they told me it was early labor and made it seem like I wouldn't go into real labor for a day or so.  I started having regular contractions around 5pm, at about 20 minutes apart.  I told Shawn to go ahead and go into work because I thought it would be a long time before I had to go to the hospital.  Around 8pm, I was having contractions about 10 minutes apart and running a fever so my mom called the doctor for me and he told me to drink two large glasses of water and lay down for a while but if my contractions got closer together he wanted me to come in.  Right after we talked to the doctor, Shawn called to see how I was doing and even though I told him he didn't have to come home yet, he decided to anyways, which ended up being the right decision because we left for the hospital around 9pm.  When we got there I was 3cm dilated so they admited me and put me in a birthing room.  Initially, I didn't have a fever at the hospital so they weren't too concerned about it.  After I got into the birthing room, I was begging for the epidural but they wouldn't give it to me till I was closer to 5cm and I got a shot of some pain killer instead which almost immediately kicked in and made me loopy.  Every once and a while they gave me another shot till I was almost at 5cm.  They called the anesthesiologist for me after that and gave me another shot to relax me.  (I was freaking out about having to sit up through contractions AND have a huge needle stuck in my back) The anesthesiologist wasn't very nice at all.  He was very rough and had no bedside manner at all but the procedure only took a few minutes.  After he left I was still having pain so my nurse called in another anesthesiologist from home because the other guy was busy.  By the time he got there I wasn't in pain anymore but he gave me more of the epidural anyways.  I slept for a long time after that.  I was woken up by my nurse because the baby's heartrate kept dropping so she kept repostioning me.  I woke up for the last time at 6am to my OB-GYN came in.  The baby's heart rate was going really high and I was at 10cm.  He noticed then that my water had an odor to it and that meant I had an infection.  (hence the fever) He told me we had to get the baby out as soon as possible so they gave me some pitocin to make my contractions more regular and speed up the process.  I pushed for an hour before she was born.  When they said it's a girl, I looked at Shawn and thought he was going to be sick.  They immediately took her away from me and started trying to get my placenta out.  The cord had been wrapped very loosely around her neck.  Her apgar score was 9/9.  It wasn't coming out though so they really had to work on it.  After they got it out, my uterus stopped contracting and I just continued bleeding.  I bled for 45 minutes before they could get it to contract and stop bleeding.  I guess everyone was pretty worried.  I was out of it because of all the drugs they kept pumping into me for pain and to stop the bleeding.  I didn't need an episiotomy but I did tear a bit so they started stitching me and that's about the time I decided to throw up.  Apparently one of the drugs they had to give me to stop the bleeding causes nausea.  I don't remember a whole lot after that.  I know I got to hold her for a few minutes and then I would wake up once and a while when this awful nurse was trying to move me.  (she wasn't my nurse for my labor) I didn't wake up again until 1pm on June 10th.  I was only asleep for about 5 hours after she was born.  I was hooked up to IV antibiotics for a day and a half.  When they released me they put me on antibiotics for the infection and after I took my  last pill of the antibiotics, I started getting hives.  So now I know another antibiotic that I'm allergic to.  The first few days home were pretty awful.  I cried a LOT and didn't really want much to do with her until all that passed and now she hardly leaves my side.  Today I started getting a fever again and was having pain in one of my boobs with swelling and redness so I called the doctor's office.  I have yet another infection so I'm back on antibiotics.  It seems like my list of problems is never going to end.  Well, that's the story.  I still haven't put any of the pictures on the computer but I promise to do it soon.

It's BORN

I went into labor last Thursday (the 9th) and (so all that wasn't false labor) but I started getting a fever so we called the doctor and went into the hospital around 10pm.  I was in labor till 7:06.  It turns out the ultrasound tech was wrong, IT'S A GIRL.  She was born on her due date, June 10th. (which is rare for a baby to actually be born on her due date)  After two days we finally named her, Jasmine Kayla.  She was 6lbs. 8oz., 19 1/2 inches long.  After she was born, they found that I had an infection in my uterine lining and it caused my uterus not to contract properly.  I was bleeding for 45 minutes before they could finally get it to stop.  I was on IV antibiotics for days and then I had to take a week of oral antibiotics.  I pushed for an hour before she was born.  She had the cord wrapped around her neck but it wasn't tight so she didn't have any problems from that.  I'm going to post pictures soon but for obvious reasons I don't have a lot of time to do anything right now.  As soon as I have time I'll also write about the labor and delivery when I'm feeling up to it.  I've been pretty exhausted since due to everything that happened after the delivery so today is the first time I've even gotten on the computer.