Me time

I can once again contact the online world of journaling.  How did I fix my problem?  I didn't.  I just waited a few days and tried to post again.  Hey, I never claimed to be a computer wiz.

I am being smothered by two people right now, my husband and Jasmine.  Ok, Jasmine can't help it, she depends on me for everything but Shawn is clinging to me.  The only "me" time I get is a once a week trip to the store and an occasional shower... which usually involves Jasmine sitting in her bouncer outside the shower.  Tonight is the first time in a week that I've had the privilege to shower alone.  Hallelujah!  I think I could scream.

Tomorrow we're supposed to go get Jasmine's Christmas pictures taken.  She's got a cute little santa outfit.  (I know very unoriginal but it was sooooo cute)

Hopefully I will have a laptop computer after tax returns.  The only time I have a chance to get online is late at night but the only time the computer is unavailable is... you guessed it, late at night.  I could get online from any place any time.  I'm currently looking at some HP's.  Any one have any laptops that you think are absolutely wonderful?  Let me know if they're better than the HP's.

Still using AIM......... I'll try and post the entry I was attemtping to write this way.....
Am I the only who has noticed that AOL journals is running really slowly with the banners they've added or is it just because I'm still in the dial up stonage of the internet? 


Not a whole lot new.  A few weeks ago I dyed my hair red.  Not red as in I look like I-was-born-with-this-hair-color red but red a

Not a whole lot new.  A few weeks ago I dyed my hair red.  Not red as in I look like I-was-born-with-this-hair-color red but red as in I just melted-a-crayon-on-my-head.  Yes, it was on purpose.  It was supposed to wash out in 8-10 washes. 
Three weeks later I still had a pinkish red tink to my hair so I decided to try and dye it a dark blonde.  I ended up dying the red in permanently.  I went to have my hair cut the next day and ask how they could fix it and was told I had to wait a month.  I have to buy deep conditioning treatments to try and fix the damage to my hair before they can do anymore dye. 
Then they can only dye as light as a medium brown with highlights, which will cost me 80 bucks just for the dye.  Maybe someday I'll learn to leave my hair to professionals.
Jasmine has gotten really good at rolling over.  She's also making a lot of razzing sounds with her mouth.  As soon as she figured out how to do it, it's been nonstop. 
To update, quickly, my dad didn't allow smoking at his house the day we were over there so there wasn't a big tado like I was expecting.

As soon as I get time, I'm going to post some pictures that have been taken in the last few weeks.  It just takes so long when you have dial up to upload them online especially since AOL is so slow when it comes to pictures.

Anyone know how the hell I can post on my journal again? I'm using AIM right now to post. Why can't they just leave things alone for once.

Urgh.. Me Jamie... Me Mad

Tomorrow I am supposed to go to my dad's house because my grandma is in town.  (she lives around 400 miles away) I called him tonight at work just to double check that they'll all be there.  He's supposed to be having people over tomorrow as well as me, Shawn and the baby.  His wife and my grandma both smoke but they go outside when we're there because I do not allow smoking around Jasmine.  I told my dad before that if they were going to smoke, then we just wouldn't come over.  He said to me tonight that four or five of the people that are coming over are smokers and he was "wondering" about that.  I said what's there to wonder about and he said that he knows I don't like smoking around the baby and was wondering if that would be a problem and I asked him Can't they smoke outside.  His response was well I don't know how cold it's going to be outside.   He suddenly had to get off the phone then.  I've made it crystal clear to him that I will not have any smoke around Jasmine.  Period.  If they smoke in the house tomorrow, I will leave.  I realize that it's his house but I don't see why it's such an inconvience to pollute their lungs outside, instead of ours inside.  If I was at a friend's house, I wouldn't expect them to smoke outside but it's my dad's house and he knows that if he wants to see his granddaugther, then those are the rules.  I'm just really mad right now.  We'll see what happens tomorrow.

Me and Shawn went to see Saw 2.  It was just as good as the first one.  Maybe a little more gory.  That movie really isn't scary, it's just gross.  There's supposed to be a movie coming out soon called Hostel and it's based on true events.  From what I gathered in this movie people pay to torture and kill other people.  People who have been kidnapped.  That movie might scare me because it's based on true events.  Texas Chainsaw Mascre scared me for the same reason.

Busy week

It's been a busy week which would explain the lack of entries.  Last Wednesday I found out that my best friend from the air force was home for a few days.  He came over on Thursday with his little girl.  She is just too cute.  Having her here made me realize that I REALLY do want more kids.  She was wonderful with Jasmine.  (Her name is Madyson) I've never seen a child that young be so gentle with an infant.  She's only about a year and a half herself.  I could've spent all day playing with her.  And of course I enjoyed having Jimmie here too.  The little ones took up most of the time though since we haven't seen eachother since Maddie was only four months old.  What's nice about me and Jimmie is that no matter how much time passes, no matter how long it's been since the last time we talked, it's always like we're just leaving off where we were the last time he was home.  It's not awkward like it would be with most friends you haven't spoken to.  We don't have to search for a conversation.  Of course, now we have two little kids to talk about. =)

On Saturday I went to the Niles Haunted House.  That was fun, although a lot of the things they had were similar to last year.  Me and Shawn are talking about going to Chicago next year and finding a haunted house up there.  Our friends know a couple of places, we all just have to find babysitters for that day.  After the haunted house we went to see Doom.  I thought it was going to be cheesy but it wasn't that bad.  I didn't spend the entire movie wishing it was over and I'll be willing to rent it when it comes out on dvd.

Saturday me and Shawn went to central Indiana to visit family.  I took Jasmine for her first horseback ride.  (I was with her of course)  She seemed to enjoy it as much as a four month old can.  My aunt Jeri got her a rocking horse from a lady at work.  Jasmine loves it and seems to know exactly where she's supposed to hold on.  I have to hold her on it since she's not really big enough for it yet.  We ate and sat around and talked and looked at pictures the rest of the time we were there.  I took three rolls of film which I'll put on here as soon as I get time. 

Sunday me, Shawn and Jasmine went to Jimmie's mom's house to visit with them for a little while before they left for Texas on Monday.  I took almost a whole roll of film on Maddie.  (which I'll also post so everyone can see how adorable she is) We stayed until I had to get back home, around 8pm.  It always seems like everyone is postponing the last goodbye before he leaves.  It's like tearing off a really tough bandaid.  You don't want to do it but you know it can't stay there forever. 

Tuesday we went to my grandma's house to see how she's holding up.  She seems more depressed everytime I see her.  I just don't know what to do to help her besides visiting often. 

"Those" people

Jasmine is rolling over all the time now.  The second I set her down on her back, she turns over onto her stomach.  She had a doctor's appointment last Friday where she got a couple of shots.  On Saturday I woke up to realize that she had slept through the night without waking up to eat.  I reached over and felt her head and she was burning up.  I gave her a bottle and took her temperature, which was 102.  When I called the doctor's office they said it was normal and could last a day or two.  I said ok and hung up.  What I really wanted to do was scream at the nurse telling her that this is NOT normal to me and that I'm bringing my baby in right this minute.  But I held my tongue and spent the next two days miserable.  The fever broke towards late Saturday night but she continued to be fussy and extremely sleepy till Monday.  She has to go back in December for a booster of that shot.  I want to skip it.  At least it's on a Thursday so if anything happens over night, I can take her to the doctor on Friday.

Last night that damned parakeet got loose... again.  He hadn't escaped in a long time, almost a year now.  I was feeding them when I heard wings above my head.  I didn't even need to look to know who it was.  I spent the next ten minutes trying to catch him.  He's now safe and sound in his cage and I'll remember it the next time I feed him.  The first few times he escaped it was funny.  Haha, Gollum's out again. (yes the little monster from the Lord Of The Rings and the name fits him quite well) But last night I was not in the mood.  After I finally getting the baby to sleep, all I wanted to do was feed them and go to bed.  Instead I was running around the room looking like a crazy person.  And of course that room doesn't have curtains so now the neighbors don't have to speculate, the KNOW that the people in "that" house have issues.

I recently became aware of some problems at the rescue.  (where I'm hoping to start back up volunteering as soon as our cars are both working at the same time) Last year they got two new volunteers.  It was a husband and wife.  I knew from the second I met them that they were trouble and I would NEVER leave anything of mine unattended while they were there.  I refered to them as the white trash people.  And I think white trash would probably take offense to that.  I usually try not to judge people upon first meeting them but I had a feeling about these two from the beginning.  Most people I meet at the rescue I initially meet I have a general liking towards just because they made the effort to help the animals, even if they're only there once, at least they did something.  After these two had been volunteering at the rescue for a while and everyone (aside from myself) was comfortable with them, they started stealing.  One of the girls who own the rescue had gotten badly bitten by a horse and needed to be on pain killers.  Which turned up missing.  I'm not sure how they found out that it was those two that had stolen them but they did and told them to leave the rescue at once.  They thought that would be the end of it.  The husband and wife then started their own rescue but were using OUR contracts and name.  The rescue was unaware of this completely.  Apparently they adopted out a dog to someone, only to take it back without repaying the money to the adopters.  The animal control was alerted and they called our rescue.  (thankfully animal control is familar with us and knows that we wouldn't do something like that) The rescue again told the husband and wife that they were no longer apart of our rescue and that they need to stop using the contracts immediately, along with the rescue name.  They proceded to tell the girl that she was going to "get them."  She began calling EVERYONE official that she could to try and get our rescue into trouble and eventually she succeeded.  The county knows what animals are kept on the property but for whatever reason they are now giving the rescue until November 7th to remove all livestock unless we can get a special use permit which they will be applying for.  They're going to be taking letters in from people in the area stating why they believe that the rescue should be granted the permit.  I just hope they get it, otherwise there will be a lot of horses and other livestock that end up dying which we could've saved.  Hopefully those people will eventually get what they deserve through fate or what have you.

Baby Steps

I really haven't had much to write lately.  I had a cold last week and spent as much time washing my hands as sneezing to prevent Jasmine from getting it.  She started on cereal the day before yesterday.  She acts like she's always been eating and makes very little in the way of messes.  She's able to roll over... and over and over now.  The past two nights she's slept in her crib, not all night but it's a start.  The first night was for five hours and last night for three.  She'd probably sleep there longer but I'm not exactly agreeable to that when I've just been woken up so I just put her next to me and feed her till she goes back to sleep.  She has a doctor's appointment on Friday for more shots.  Well, I'm off to find something to eat.  I'll try to keep up on writing.  I just haven't much felt like it lately.