Just sad

Monday night, me and DH split up. We were back together before morning but it's going to be a long rocky road. Neither one of us has been happy for a long time. Somewhere along the way we just became friends. And that's all we were. I was running away from our problems the last month by spending every waking moment at Danny and Dina's house. I knew I wasn't solving anything but it was just much easier than dealing with it all. Then, he came to their house Monday night and we went for a drive and within ten minutes it was over. No yelling, just over. I still don't know what's going to happen. We have a lot of stuff we need to work out though. I have a lot of my own stuff I need to get straight as well. I'm supposed to go to work tomorrow but I just don't think I can deal with it all yet. I don't know what I need but going to work tomorrow isn't real high on my list of things. I just feel like I've completely screwed up everyone's lives and put it all on hold. Everyone's all emotional now. My mom's upset, my brother's upset, my best friend is upset. I just wish I could see into the future. When DH left, I thought I was doing what was right for him and he was trying to do what was right for me. Once I got home though, I broke down to my mom and was just plain freaking out. I called him and had my mom talk to him and he decided to come home and see how things went. I just hope we're not putting off the obvious. It hurts so much to think that we might not be together at some point and time. I don't know what to do, say or think anymore.