Why can't life just be easy for a little while?  I can't remember if there was ever a time in my life where it all felt easy?  I feel like I'm always swimming upstream and never making any progress.  There are days I just wish I could stay asleep for a really really long time.  The only thing that keeps me from becoming so depressed that I just don't move at all, is my daughter.  Sometimes I feel like she's all I have.  My husband has become extremely passive aggressive.  It's one of my least favorite ways that people express themselves.  I'd rather you just came out with it than torture me with snide comments for months on end.  There are days when everything is made out to be my fault.  I wouldn't be surprised if I caused natural disasters as well.  I just want things to be ok for a little while.  It's funny because when I think about a lot of this past summer, I think about how much fun I had and how it was one of the best summer's I've ever had.  (aside from losing my dog) And now I feel like this coming year will be one of the worst ever.  There are days I just want to give up, crawl in a hole and die.